...when I was sittin' all alone

I used to cry...when I was sittin' all alone
gettin' so, so high...when I was sittin' all alone
watchin' life go by...when I was sittin' all alone
wishin' I would die...when I was sittin' all alone

Little did I know that I was already dead
because little did I know how quick that demon would spread
"Dead man walkin', y'all!", yeah that's what I said
for I was dead inside my heart...I was dead inside my head

I used to know this little boy who died so long ago
He had a smile a mile wide that showed a happy glow
I'd see him every day, every day I'd watch him grow
Basketball in the sunshine and football in the snow

I used to walk him home after each and every game
Daytime, night time, it was always the same
until one day I couldn't find him, and I was calling out his name
That's the day he disappeared... as the darkness came

Years and years went by, tears and tears went by
and every time I'd see his mama she would look me in the eye
She never blamed me, but she would always ask me why
and I never had an answer for every tear she would cry

One day I was on the sidewalk jumpin' over each crack
and I saw that little boy on the right side of the track
He said he saw white lights before he fell into black
and he said he talked to God, and God brought him back

God gave him another chance, another chance to atone
and he asked God to hold his hand because he couldn't do it on his own
He said he was saved by the love and the mercy he was shown
I used to cry...when I was sittin' all alone