Stockholm Sin-Drome

I know now that yall have read some of my stuff and seen two of my slams (newest one is in slam section) that im a very intense person, my passion very much overflows and this tooic especially makes me emotional and im recording it next, there may be a few parts in her that are questionable maybe, but its my thoughts, God bless you guys and thanks for the support!



For 8 years my idle time went into the idol dimes I worshipped on the net
What I thought was beauty was perverse and made up lust in my head
But in the end I was left with the guilt after having sex with my hand

OH I WAS MADE FOR MORE THAN THIS!
so computer screen give me a kiss! Goodbye!
I cant keep filling my mind with these lies
Wrapped up nicely behind a busty blonde with bright blue eyes!
I disgust myself
I disgust myself!
Christ didn't drown in His own blood and die
So I could ignore my salvation and spit in His eyes by filling mine with this...
this destruction of His daughters' innocence!
I WAS MADE FOR MORE THAN THIS!
I cant stand that even when I grow old
When I start to wrinkle and my skin begins to fold
I wont forget the face of my sin in that play boy centerfold


I come to you a former addict
And if there's any holiness that comes from being free of lust I lack it
I'm not talking like the stack of porn in your uncles attic
I'm talking the 'if I don't get it my body hurts' kind of addict
And how many days do you have to go without to not be considered an addict?
Because it's been three days if that's good enough for Jesus that's good enough for me
Heck, I'm hoping and praying that He'll be the one to set me free

Father believe me I don't mean to break your heart
I'm standing so much taller now but inside I'm falling apart
I said I'm sorry God!
What kind of bride am I?!
With every day passing on the calendar I give you another reason why you had to die
OH MY GROOM!
please don't let the water well up in your eyes
I know you shaped me from the clay using the tears you cried
So I confess!
that must be what it'll take again to fix this mess!
Let it rain!
Open the floodgates of heaven!
Let it rain!

We have a Saviour that can sympathize with our weaknesses
But I wonder in that desert with the devil were there any mistresses?!
I know you never sinned
Never once did you give in
But was she there?
Eying you with a flat blank stare
I wonder how you could say no!
Because God knows, you know I can't!
I walk around everywhere hearing the sirens chant
"But it feels so good
Just give in
Wait Til later to worry about your sin"
They sing so beautifully but it's a lie and I can tell
I don't take this lightly but their intentions are straight from Hell!

I don't want to sink in sin
But in drowning in Your grace!
Oh my God I can't wait to thank you when we meet face to face
For dealing with all the repeated mistakes I make in this fallen place
So lets wrap this poem up in a nice little bow...
IF YOU CAN SYMPATHIZE WITH MY WEAKNESSES I NEED FOR IT TO SHOW!
MY GOD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO SAY NO!
amen.

You're right, it's intense, but I think this subject matter needs to be dealt with in this way. Very nice work! I'm a fan for life.