I am a roman soldier
Under prefect Pontius Pilate
I was there in Gethsemane
Part of the guards dispatched to capture the "enemy"
I watched Peter pull out a sword and cut off a servants ear!
And while I tied Christ's hands together He beckoned the servant to come near and he healed him!
I was the one who took him to the High Priest where they mocked his claim to be the King of Kings!
I was there when Pilate shouted at the Sanhedrin standing beside me
Is this the king of the Jews
Then Jesus said so solemnly
"I am whatever you choose"
I watched pilate give in to the people's pressure and sentence them to kill the Son of Man
I was even the one holding the bowl when pilate washed his hands!
And I was on my way out
When I heard Peter shout
"I do not know this Christ!"
And I delivered notice to the officials that Judas had took his own life
I was there when they took Jesus out to the streets
I'm the one who twisted a crown of thorns and slammed it on His head!
Then the whole garrison garrison bowed at His feet while I kneeled there trying to mask my growing belief
I was there when he dragged the cross through the city and up the hill
Falling to His knees in the place He'd be killed
I was there with a hammer in my hand and a nail on His
Feeling the weight of my sin every time I pulled back for another hit
It was then I looked into His eyes
And He looked into mine and said
"You are forgiven
Follow me and repent from this life that you're living"
And I had faith.
I was there when they dropped the cross into the dirt
I heard His bones dislocate and my heart began to hurt
I crucified my savior!
And tears rolled down my cheeks...
I was there when He shouted
" Father why have you forsaken me"
And gave his last breath
It was then I knew He was only man and my faith fell with His death
I was there when Thomas came running through the city three days later with blood on his fingers shouting
"Surely He is risen!"
I followed Thomas to the sea
Where I saw Jesus and His disciples having breakfast on the beach...
It was then that I truly believed.