Who am I

The crack in my soul my heart of coal
Lost without reception of love
From rags and chains I’ve fought the pain
From sleeping on peoples plastic covered porches
To stealing to feed my addictions

From atop the mountains of gold
With heavens breath I have a hold
My life is finally in control

What goes up must come down
Relapse is like a chump
Doctors all around
Speaking all these sounds
Never walk again?
Another cut to the skin
I have lost everything

He’ll never make it
He wont amount to any thing
Same old $%^ and its agonizing

Reaching deep an inferno erupts
Walk away but same old stuff
Lying on my face crying all strung out
Begging my wife to forgive me don’t kick me out
I force through the wild the wind and storm fighting for a breath of life
Visions of past drugs attack
ICU to correctional
My time has been nothing but dysfunctional

Changing my ways
Has granted me the way
Job, family and a collage degree
Its not perfect
Its only plan D

I find myself
Crying out
Lost in fear
Nothing is clear
Why am I here?
Where do I steer?
I braved the valley of desperation
Only to climb MT aggression
Surly all my answers are here
At the top I shed more tears
I find what I have been waiting for
All these thing tribulations happens for
The one thing I have sought for
Deception is deceitful
I have found emptiness

I’m left but to wonder
What is this?
Perhaps a fancy slumber?
I’m lost without a hint of what or where.
I can only ponder
Who am i…….

Wow, breathtaking. I'm so glad you returned at graced us with this piece. I've missed seeing your work. And, this is excellent! It's a cliffhanger, I wanted to keep reading after it was all over.

Thanks for the feedback
I was very unsure about this one even fitting the poetry category. It was a very emotional ride trying to write this one. Glad you like it!

Yeah, I would consider this a free verse poem, and I can tell it was an emotional ride writing it. That's what makes it so good.

Intense, brotha. No doubt. Glad to see God brought you through. Word.

Thanks!

Very powerful piece, thanks for sharing!!

God Bless.

Very powerful...nicely done!
Concise, sincere, heartfelt, no "question" about it.