I hope those are the words...

Subject: I hope those are the words... Wed Jun 20, 2012 8:49 am

I can't undo what I already did

and I guess I probably never should've stabbed that kid

and I wonder what he's doin' and I hope he's alright

and I hope he didn't die in the alley that night...

I can't hide it forever, this feeling's tearing me apart

Weighing me down, becoming heavy on my heart

So long ago, yet it seems like yesterday

and no matter what I do I can't make it go away

I close my eyes and see his body, crumpled at my feet

pouring out blood on the cold concrete

I close my ears and hear him gasp, breathing hard and fast

as I took off running...now I'm running from my past

How could I just leave him, cold and alone

crying and dying...out there on his own

Why did I even stab him, it wasn't that big of a deal

and why am I feeling these feelings that I feel

These feelings of pain after all these years

Why did my laughter turn to so many tears

It never used to bother me, I never even cared

but like that kid in the alley, I feel alone and scared

I hope somebody helped him before he breathed his last breath

and I feel by stabbing him I kind of caused my own death

and it's finally caught up after all this time

The act of leaving him, not stabbing him, was really the crime

and now I can't stop thinking and I can't stop crying

and I wish I would have held him as he lay there dying

and I would've told him it's okay and that help is on the way

but I didn't do that, I just ran away

and I don't know why I became so cold, and I don't know how

and I've never cried to you Jesus, but I'm crying to you now

and I don't know how to pray and I don't know what to say

but I'm sorry and I hope that kid's alive today

I remember the pain, and dropping to one knee

and then laying in the dark as the blood flowed free

Since then God sent the Light, that I may see

and I hope those are the words of the man who stabbed me

Subject: Re: I hope those are the words... Wed Jun 20, 2012 9:19 am

The right words are always so very hard to find, for things that weigh heavy upon our minds.
We can spew limitless verses, and infinite rhymes and still all amount to nothing until it is time.
In the book of life, not a single thought, action, deed or word will be...without essence.
Very nicely done!

Subject: Re: I hope those are the words... Wed Jun 20, 2012 11:05 am

Very powerful. I am sure everyone will read it again and again.

Subject: Re: I hope those are the words... Wed Jun 20, 2012 3:02 pm

Intense, and I can see both sides clearly, beautifully done

Subject: Re: I hope those are the words... Thu Jun 21, 2012 3:47 pm

Raw, heart pounding, and well written, as always. I just love your willingness to be open and shine the Light of Jesus through your work. Powerful stuff my friend!

Subject: Re: I hope those are the words... Fri Jun 22, 2012 12:33 pm

Very moving and powerful.

Subject: Re: I hope those are the words... Mon Aug 06, 2012 2:57 pm

Come on back to page one,"in the beginning..."